Still Sick

Poor Callia is still sick. The past few days she has been begging for food and then throwing it up when I give it to her. Yesterday she would throw up and immediately ask for something, suggesting things like McDonalds. Its hard to tell her no when I know she is bound to feel like she is literally starving. I was spending the whole day fixing her food just for her to throw it up, trying things like applesauce, crackers, vitamin water, banana, oatmeal (that was one she specifically asked for) and other stuff I thought would be easy to keep down.

Today, at the advice of the nurse I have taken and different strategy and have not been allowing Callia to eat even though she is asking for food. Every thirty minutes to an hour I'll give her something to eat or drink, about a quarter cup. The nurse said even a teaspoon of water every thirty minutes would be good but I'm pushing it because she is so hungry. Thank God she hasn't been throwing anything up that way. I was starting to get very worried about her. I am hopeful that she will begin to feel less hungry over time if I keep giving her little bits of stuff. Before I was giving her a little more at a time because she was asking for it, but these little bits are staying down better. She cried this morning when I wouldn't give her more kix. She asked for sausage this afternoon. I've been setting the timer so she can hear it go off when it is time for her to have something else to eat, and that comforts her, probably because she is otherwise afraid I'm going to forget to feed her, and she knows it is coming.

Thaddeus has been fairly miserable as well, but he has been keeping down breast milk. I have not been feeding him anything else for fear he would throw it up and the milk would come up with it. I have also been feeding him more frequently so he gets smaller amounts. Last night he would not sleep in his own bed. We fed him a little rice cereal mixed with milk and he gobbled that up but started pushing it away long before he ate a full meal. It was maybe a quarter of the size of his normal meal. Then when he refused to let me lay him down in his crib we allowed him to stay up later, and he was pretty cheery in his swing playing with toys. I tried putting him to bed again and once again he would not sleep. Nathan tried feeding him some applesauce but he was so upset when we put him in the chair we didn't even try. He just wanted to be held and nurse. So we just turned off our movie and went to bed with him in bed with us, but I could not sleep because Thad was kicking and whining and would not stop nursing on and on and on. We'd drift off and he'd wake up again very soon after. This went on until about 3am when I tried again to put him in his bed and when he woke up again I actually allowed him to cry himself to sleep which didn't take more than a minute because he was so tired. But he woke up again a couple minutes later. So Nathan went and slept on the couch (I'm sure he slept much better there, I was beginning to think it would be nice if I could but it wouldn't have helped since Thad needed to be with me). I did sleep a little better with a little extra room. Thad kicked for about an hour and then slept reasonably well after that. What a miserable night. Then in the morning Callia woke up throwing up once again.

Fortunately I haven't gotten sick yet, and hopefully I can escape without getting this. I don't see how it could be possible, but maybe God is planning on being nice to me.